Elucidating Questions

I find it decidedly unfair

How I am linked to him but not he to me

That I spend every day with thoughts of him buzzing about

But he goes through his day entirely without

Without whatever I am

I am a stranger unheard of

And he is my most treasured man

How unbalanced that is

How is it that this is allowed to stand?

I mean fuck it I love him

But he doesn’t even know I exist

And not in a teenage “but he doesn’t know I exist” way

I literally don’t exist in his universe

I don’t exist in many universes but his is the one I want to exist in

I want to

I wish to

I wish I could will it to be