Elucidating Questions

I feel so stuck in place

I want to work because I want to feel useful

But I can’t work full-time which makes me slightly less useful anyways

But why do I want to feel useful?

Is it because of society telling me I must do so?

If it were up to me we’d only work when we wanted to

The rest would be for play

I want to feel like I am free of what society expects of me

I don’t want to be stuck within that very thin definition of what is right and proper

So perhaps not being able shouldn’t get to me as much as it does

Maybe I should see it as a slight to society and accept my self and my limitations

I’m not a bad human just because I fail to meet society’s expectations

Those two words should rhyme but they don’t quite how odd

Sorry

I really think that I wouldn’t be this hard on anyone else

Have these out of the world expectations

I think I should be easier on myself in this way

But I feel so stuck between the feeling of accepting it and feeling like I should be better

Trapped between thoughts

Like I often am