Elucidating Questions

This stupid woman from today is keeping me awake

I tried so hard not to take her tone personally but it hurt my feelings

And I’m so sick of people talking to me like I’m beneath them

I hate the serve part of service

I’m so tired of people treating me like a fixture of the store

They don’t even give you twenty seconds to put away receipts from the last customer

They don’t wait for you to clean up after the last customer

They just come swooping in before you can even breathe and demand it

Service

And I can’t sleep

And this stupid woman is not worth my time and not worth my energy and not worth the brain power it takes to keep me lying awake for two hours

But all I can think of is why?

Why can’t I say to someone who is rude to me “you’re being rude to me and I’m done talking to you”? Why can’t I raise my head to their level and say, “Don’t speak to me that way”?

There isn’t a wage in the world worth being treated this way and you know the ones at the top never had to be so why?

Why is it that all I can do is write poems at midnight about the stupid bitch with her stupid shoes who spoke to me like she did

Customer service isn’t fair

They stopped calling it slaves and they can’t hit us anymore but people still treat us like we are less than they are and it’s not fair

If I had known I was going to be working in this industry until I was 31 I never would have started working at 16 and then I never would have had my wits kicked out of me emotionally by years of having people treat me like shit

I just want to sleep

I want to go to that stupid woman’s house and cause her the same emotional pain she’s caused me

But of course that’s never happening

And I wouldn’t dare

I just wish I was allowed to stand up for myself

That corporate didn’t require me to scrape my humanity off for eight hours and accept how I’m treated

Now it’s the middle of the night and how I’ve been treated is affecting my mental wellbeing but there’s no such thing as support for feeling like this

And they expect us to work for minimum wage?

Every person working in corporate should have had to work a week in retail

I just want to sleep

Instead I’m going to write a bunch of nasty things

Fucking asshole-bitch-cunt

People should fucking pay attention to how they talk to people so shit like this doesn’t happen but they don’t care

Everyone should be forced to care as much as I do

I care like the most tiny amount and it’s still more than almost every human I’ve come into contact with

Do better humanity

I hope your shoes don’t fit and you can’t get your money back.