Elucidating Questions

My mind is full of wrong thoughts today

And you

Whoever you is

Whoever it is that is missing from my life that I miss

I know it’s more of an idea than a corporeal you

You who I miss when I want to cuddle

You who I miss when I’m having a hard day and need to talk

You who could help me out of the mess I’ve got myself in

I wish it was as simple as setting eyes on you and knowing

Because these people have broken me and I am afraid

Because I don’t trust anyone completely

Because I’m anxious and just not my perfect self

I wonder if anyone will see me

Or if I will spend my life feeling like the inside and the outside don’t fit properly

I wish there was a you that can see me

Someone who doesn’t see the slanted view of me that everyone else sees

My thoughts are on the void in my life that has always been you

Sometimes I feel like I have a twin that died

Like there’s someone missing from this world

I hope you know wherever you are that I miss you

I think of you all the time