Elucidating Questions

He’s just so close

Always right there

Just out of reach but he haunts my dreams

And my days are empty until he’s in them

I just want to hear his voice and see his face and

I really want to know what it would feel like to hold his face in my hands and just

Stare into his beautiful blue eyes

And there’s nothing in this world like the moment I saw him

Before it was all tainted in regret and pain

Hurtful seeing it all so happy

Hurtful being an invisible nothing for anyone to see

I wish I could find someone who makes me feel like the second his voice meets my ears

The way his scream tugs my heart in his general direction

There’s nothing for me here but I stay close by because without him my life has no music

No reason

No matter how far away you are I always feel you near

Or something similar in another language I just

Wish I could be something to him even if it was just someone who says things and isn’t heard like it is with every other human on this earth

I wish I could say some words to him

Some words that come out right and don’t slant slightly to the left of “proper thing to say to a person”

Some words like…

You are worth so much more than this world has to offer

See slightly left

Some words would be nice

I wish I had some words