Elucidating Questions

Nobody but lady mine

Nobody

Haha I guess my last thread of hope has finally snapped

I knew it was coming, watched it coming, could see it coming

Contrary to the belief of others

My rational side isn’t surprised

Isn’t surprised

It still sounds like home but I don’t belong there

How do I reconcile these two sides believing entirely opposite things

There’s no chance

There is always a chance

Nothing could ever happen

Anything could happen

At least he stopped running away from the guitar

At least he still knows how to play

I hate her

I don’t hate her

I hate her for him

I think they’re meant to be

If only I got to live one tenth of the love story they got to live

It’s like my life of emptiness was a punishment for actions before they were taken

I’ve been living with the curse for trespassing into his life since the day I was born

The only men that want me want to harm me

The guy who molested me in church

My ex boyfriend

The only two men that ever showed interest in me

Showed interest when I was 8 years old (thus I could not consent and didn’t)

Showed interest and then tried to smother me with a pillow (thus… Well I don’t like that)

There he is living a love story of the ages

Not meant for me

I wish someone could love me

Even just…

I’d take the dullest star in the sky if that was all I was allowed to see

I love him and it’s not fair

I just want someone else

Someone who isn’t singing Lady Mine