Elucidating Questions

I have such profound feelings about those whose bodies are betraying them

Alzheimer’s, fibromyalgia, cancer, etc

Bodies doing something they’re not supposed to and taking their unwilling occupants on a wild ride they did not sign up for

The moments that bodies betray you are some of the most upsetting

The feeling of your hands just…letting go

Falling asleep midstep

Cells growing into grotesque blobs

The moment you go for a memory

But it’s not there

This feeling of absolute betrayal

From deep within

Wondering if within is even in your body because clearly you and it are not related

Feeling so alienated from your own skin

When it’s raking pain across your stomach but there’s nothing there

When you just got stabbed with a knife that’s just not there

The body making its own choices which are clearly entirely different than yours

When you’re not safe even in yourself

Because the enemy is your own flesh