Elucidating Questions

My moments alone are spent contemplating the pain

Why it’s there

For what reason

Why I have to suffer through it

And listen to people in far better positions than I

Complain about their problems

When it’s bad I don’t want to be empathetic

I don’t want to share all your tiny little problems my life is a problem

I wish I could make you feel how I feel for a second so you could comprehend

Tired

And pain

And “not feeling well”

I wish there was a pill you could take to feel what I feel for a moment so the next time I say

It hurts

You’d realise it’s not just what I said that hurts

So when I say

I’m tired

You’d know how hard I had to work to get out of bed today

How difficult clawing my way through the day is

Contemplating the pain

Doesn’t make it go away