Elucidating Questions

Sometimes I feel like it’s my own fault I get abused

People keep telling me I have a victim complex but the truth is

It’s my fault anyways isn’t it?

It’s my fault anyways

I can’t be the victim if I was the cause

It’s my fault people hurt me

It’s my fault people spread lies about me

It’s my fault people harm me

I just don’t know how to take responsibility for causing my own pain

Don’t know how to fix it

I’m just me

I don’t know what’s wrong with me no one ever says what is wrong with me they just throw me into doors and whisper lies about me and try to smother me with a pillow

What did I do?

I need to know what I did or I can’t interact with other people anymore

I don’t want to make them hurt me

Don’t want to turn good people bad

Don’t want to cause a light to go out

I’ll just keep to myself

Maybe it’s safer that way for everyone