Elucidating Questions

Do you remember when I told you I’d love you no matter what?

Do you remember anything?

Or were you too high on drugs.

But I miss your way of being

But I don’t miss the mess

But I miss when it felt like we were working

And cuddling on the couch

I miss you

Why do I miss you?

I wish I could speak the words I want to at you and meet the person who used to listen when I spoke

I miss you hearing me

I don’t miss you hurting me

Why do I miss you?

You who never understood boundaries or personal items

Or how to keep a room clean for more than five minutes

You used to talk to my piggies

But you showed no respect for me or them

I’m sorry for myself

Sorry I miss you

I miss you

And I’ll love you no matter what.