Elucidating Questions

Staring at the clock and thinking

That’s about right

Then thinking maybe I don’t know what I’m talking about

And wondering while this thinking happens

Whether any of this trauma is truly trauma

Maybe it’s make believe

But I feel it

But it can’t possibly

Maybe I’m wrong

I wish it was make believe

So much easier to not already be counting down the seconds until it’s over

Don’t burn bridges

He taught me I struggle to see

Every night in my dreams…

Like a lost melody

And these things going on in between no cure or remedy

Just me

Surely it’s time now

So tired of waiting