Elucidating Questions

I said I’d let a homeless man sleep on my couch

I did

What now?

I stand outside my house

Trying to convince myself that I’m just chain smoking

I can’t look at it

Can’t see most of it

I

Care very deeply for this person and there is

A certain self exile in it

I could be over there proactively fixing it

Instead I choose to be overwhelmed

Merely my own self failure to not notice the inconvenience of being homeless

Now I’ll stand motionless wishing for it to get better

Watch the wheel spin

What a time

What a time