Elucidating Questions

It’s no longer a dress rehearsal it’s no longer prep for distant futures it’s just

Thinking of you

Thinking of you and then thinking

I’m in the wrong

Because after all I just wanted to save you and you’re saved so where does my mind even go?

What saving you is done

How does it save you

To think of things never coming never happening

How far do I have to go before thoughts of you are gone

I wish I could know

How I wish I could know

How to make these none premonitions go

Why does it mirror itself

Why can I not just forget you

If I don’t love you?