Elucidating Questions

It’s just trapped in my heart on repeat while repeating the reasons it will never be why they’re better than me why I can’t live for free

I just want to live

That’s all I want but it never works

No matter how hard I try nothing quite goes how it could

Nothing ever works nothing quite fits

There’s no click that makes it stay no attachment to the day no interest they say in anything but

It’s so hard to enjoy when there’s no way to enjoy because every second is filled wondering what to do next

Every time everyone acts like it’s no big deal but it’s a big fucking deal and I’m so fucking close to getting screwed every time

I bet everyone thinks I’m over exaggerating

Fuck