Elucidating Questions

I don’t care what he says I still love you

And without knowing who you even is

He can come up with all these reasons and make it seem okay

But he’s a scared little boy and he’s afraid we’ll just keep getting hurt

I miss you

Every day I look your way but you don’t look mine

Do you even know where I am?

When I know just with a feeling

You’re so far away but I know

It doesn’t matter

Even if his paranoia is true

Even if he’s right

Even if you’re somehow awful

Well it just sounds like I’m trying to point out flaws and then gaslight you

I’ll still love you

I wish I could explain

I wish it made sense

I’m not saying you’re a bad guy but I can still love you congratulations to me

I’m saying he may think those things but I don’t have to because we’re not the same person

I’m saying I don’t believe it

I’m saying I still think you’re wonderful of course I do

Spreading something across the country

Just look at the moon

To know how much I love you

Just see how the moon hangs so perfectly in the sky

How she had to crash into the earth to find her place

How she shines a light of the night for those afraid of the dark

I still love you

It all looks so fake but I still love you

I hate myself

You’ll always be number one to me

You’ll always be above me

You don’t even care

But that’s my own fault