Elucidating Questions

What a disaster

He’s off enjoying

And my rent money is gone

Poof

It just goes to show

It just goes to show that I’m always in the wrong

No matter what I do

And Icarus is hooting in my ear

That he’s not the only one who crashed into the sun

And lived to fight another day

It would be nice if he would fight

But I have more important things to do

Like crying about the desperation and impossibility of my situation

And there’s no one to answer

What am I going to do?

What am I going to do now?

There’s no one to sit with me as the night wears on and I don’t know what to do.

There’s no one here.

And he got to play all night and it just proves

I’m a monster

And I deserve this

And I wish I hadn’t given myself a reason to love because I want to die to badly

I just want to die

I don’t know what to do and I’m all alone and I can’t ask for help because I’m an adult and I should have myself figured out

I don’t know what to do

I’m all alone

And he’s safe and sound

And no matter what I do I’m drowning

And no one cares about me