Elucidating Questions

My tears mean nothing to you

I lie here screaming to the aether

Sometimes

Sometimes when it hurts so much

I wish you could feel me crying

I want you to feel how I feel

And then I realise how terrible that is

And I thought I’d have it all figured out by now

But no one knows I’ve been crying

And you’re meeting and greeting and flashing smiles all around

And I could never afford to meet you

And I told myself you’d love me so I wouldn’t kill myself

It’s such a pretense I can’t pretend I’ll ever be good enough for you

All for you

And I think I’ll always

Always wait