Elucidating Questions

I’m falling apart

I can’t take the pain I’m standing outside thinking

I don’t belong here

I want to go somewhere

I’m so lonely come help

I scream to Sirius with a lump in my throat

The stars shine silently

Or, really,

They blaze and I don’t know what sound waves do in space but I can only assume they’re quite loud

But from here there is silence

I’m beyond saving

No one tried to help me because I’m beyond saving they just gave up on me

And she had people fighting for her and she still did it and they loved her

No one loves me

No one wants me to stay

At least no one else has to see me on the floor of my kitchen sobbing

At least I’m the only one who has to experience me