Elucidating Questions

I’m afraid of people

That much I know after trying too hard to think of everyone as someone who I could trust

If only we lived in a world where tricksters weren’t needed

Mused the trickster

The muses nodded solemnly

I’m so used to being told to shut up

I wish I could be up on that mountain instead of at this bus stop

Which is about as effective as wishing I get better forever

I’m afraid of the part where they say they don’t want me

Sugar we’re going down swinging in a blaze of searching for intangible dreams in an unknown world

If I’ve lost the light then someday

The light that never comes

How the sun must weep that he is not the light we want

He tries to slip away and I drag him back

Help me

Mute

I’m mute and he won’t talk about it because he’s hurting

Too

Because they left me left him too

Who’s whispering?

Ah, Capella. Or something farther.

She’s whispering songs of the ocean I can’t hear when she’s at the zenith.

Because I convinced myself it’s all pointless complaining because they all told me to shut up

But I’m the only one, everyone else deserves a voice

So I’ll listen to the waves instead

Reminders to breathe

Reminders

Inside me there’s still a small child seeking acceptance and understanding which we’re only afforded until we aren’t children anymore

I don’t remember the warning

But I’m so inside myself I can’t talk

Who are you talking to?

What’s left

I don’t know if it has a personality but it says what you want it to

The way back is already gone but it’s not over and nothing makes sense

And the raven crowed that was what they do

But the future whispered

All alone like right now

You did this to yourself

And now you’ll see how quiet it is all alone

So I need another sound

So I never have to hear how alone I really am