Elucidating Questions

There’s an irony to the anxiety

Laying awake until 3

Trying to explain to my body that I’m not going to die today

When my brain suddenly becomes scared of it.

Suddenly like at three in the morning I actually care if I live or die

It’s fine I was just tired I got over it

And woke up

Then remembered how much nothing I contributed to

And I just want to die