Elucidating Questions

これからそれだね?

Well I told you

Well we tried to stop you

I just wanted to be able to steer in the direction I wanted for once without feeling like

Well this is just how it has to be

Hopelessly

人間

怖いから

Vicious pain

You’re so good at influencing us in all the ways I can’t explain that I’ve seen over and over again that I can’t fucking explain lucky you

At least I got a sweater out of it

Like can you

Can you hear me?

I’m down to this

And I don’t even know how to actually take joy from that stale fact because every fucking cent counts

It’s about time I stopped buying boys clothes

Buying clothes for boys

Or anything

Or even, really,

Hermes you’ll laugh

But I don’t see a point in life if I never get to love someone

If I never get to be loved by someone and say it’s right

Now

Like there’s nothing else worth it for me to do

I tried so many things and I can’t stand any of it

Nine months

Of course

Because 999

Nein nein nein.

No.

Was a choice so I suppose that it gets to the point where feelings

Are hurt

And who ever said anything was going to change for me or get better

But a lyre and his fucking stormy weather