Elucidating Questions

Am I mad?

Of course I’m mad you planted in my mind all the things to ruin everything

I just want to know what the bet was so I can decide who wins it

Hiding under over behind your blanket that never touches the screen

I don’t want to know which of you started it but I know

It’s just like you to fuck around with someone’s life for fun

When did you get permission to bother me?

How am I supposed to believe what you say?

Bother do I mean interfere attempt to recourse

And yet I feel the less sinister of the two

Don’t tell your daddy he may get mad

Throttled laughter

Such things you do in the dark when you have nothing to lose

But I have nothing to lose and I still have nothing to lose

Just nothing

So much nothing

Let go of nothing

And show you a self that is how I am

From the outside not in

It’s all from the outside battering

I can’t let anyone next to me

Hey so I saw Will today

Thanks for the heads-up

Because one sees I’m angry and says

Of course you are. But you’ll love me later anyways.

And the other

Starts trying to burn away the clouds to prove he’s not hiding

I can’t with you two, honestly.

Gods I love you fucking assholes.

I’m mad,

I’m so mad.

Fifty fucking thousand silvery lights in the distance can sing in unison with the madness I portray by being fucked around by your fuckery

But it’s my life

So it’s fine

At least it’s not boring