Elucidating Questions

Take one

Oh my god I am so excited to meet you I love you I want to sing like you

Why?

But it didn’t ruin it because I crushed Duo

Had a long thoughtful talk with Quatre

And I got to have a brief and enjoyable encounter with Trowa

And now every time I hear those who I know them and it’s like

Oh my god you’re still selling Toyotas ???

And you all over those anti texting while driving videos

You always with the drunk driving stuff

Like these guys I met for five whole minutes

Brad sorry

Like twenty minutes

I never told that secret

It’s some things I can’t usually find because the fear

Hides on top

Those years were not happy

But I got to meet some people who got me through it

So Lacus hated me.

Irony.

But all those other people.

I have tortured that poor man

I hope singing with him and always saying hi and respecting that he’s just a dude

Makes up for stupid 17

Hahaha

I’m just wandering through tiptoed dreams of before that went right

Trying not to disturb the moment with now because

That stuff isn’t going to happen anymore.

When I walked up to Yukito/Uranus so many others

Look but don’t touch

And she didn’t follow the rule

When I was so prepared for Duo

Rey

Many

Many

Many

Many

To disappoint me or think my thinking

It’s a Sailor Moon bag

Gundam Wing and Sailor Moon were my everything

Reading reading f-for the Japanese

wtf

Aura

But he shook my hand and signed it and put up with my silliness later

I can’t be doing things like that anymore but

I did

So

Life is strange

So the writer writes himself death threats

The whole

Disappointing

Heroes but like

I was smart enough to know then that the actual heroes aren’t the ones who you look at

They’re that ones who just so happened to end up being what the memories go to when I’m all alone

And

Dearka years later

I still have that little figure

It’s one of the only ones who’ve survived the years.

I remember so very clearly

Dearka: But why am I so small?

See like

The shining light that keeps the memory clear because

Because for a moment the world just felt like

Unbelievably perfect because of how unfuckingbelievably fucked my life is always in between the lines

What I need is a hero as in

Someone who can make my life feel that way

I’m aware that sifting through yesterday

Doesn’t lead to tomorrow

I won’t pretend those moments will ever be back.