Elucidating Questions

Still I’m trapped here

There’s no sensible reason why

I cannot find one

I tried

I tried

I tried

And I’m tired and I wish I hadn’t tried

What is the world here for if this is it why does this all have to happen

Why isn’t there a way to change it

Just for one moment so I could see that things could be right

I have to come up with a way to make living through the night worth it

But there’s no chance

Live continues wordlessly in agony and there’s no where to make it right

It doesn’t matter what I do where I go what I say if I sing if I dance if I cry

If I cut myself

Try to bleed myself dry

I

Don’t want to be here

I don’t want to live the life I’m living I never wanted to live the life I was living and being alive just

Happens because I’m not dead yet

I’m still waiting

I still wish I hadn’t woken up