Elucidating Questions

He gave me $100

He gave me one hundred dollars

Yeah that’ll fix it

Throw money at it

Don’t acknowledge your behaviour throw money at it

Try to prove to yourself how much of an ungrateful child I am because I always take your money when you won’t stop

Act as if it must have been something you did last year and not somethings you did you did you did

Just throw money at it

I wish you could understand

I wish you could understand that if I did say it I will kill myself because I have no memory and I couldn’t live knowing I did

But I wish you could understand

Why I needed an answer

Why I needed a reason

Why I searched and searched and dug and dug and swam until I couldn’t keep my head above the waves they were all drowning in

What love does optimism cost but love?

No you fucking tell me this I have no answers

I have no reasons

I have no point

They’re all leaving

They won’t stay around here

Do you know how long I stayed around here

Afraid they might need me?

Merry Christmas

Good luck and goodbye

Saturn’s hands are on her neck

I know

I say to the faceless man

I know

That’s a fact of life

And it’s beautiful

It is in the moment the last air leaves the moment

That the creature sees all the memories cherished by those who loved them

All the memories tainted by the face within

I wish you could understand where and why we drop it

My cat is going to die

And I’m going to miss her

But because my rage is blind and my pain is

Familiar

Enough to ignore I can see all these stories of her life and I’ve loved watching her life

Because her life is real and I’m going to miss her but

Damn it

She’s so upset about being old.

Sometimes she sits at the top of the stairs and waits to smack you

Well, she used to

One time she left a very large bite on my hand but I was being stupid and definitely deserved it

The scar will be a treasured memory of my treasure

Silver

I will always always

Be thankful for the time I’ve been granted with you

And you will always be the best lie I ever told

Also I finally caught up in math after that one year I did literally on a calculator to fake my mark so I could have you

It’s timely, you are beautiful

I wish he could understand

Very strange ways come from

Alone alone alone

This is my culture

These these

Strange things I wanted an answer for

So Call Me Maybe came on

Not once

But

twice

1. Rockband (fine I used to love this song and I play rockband still because I can perform)

2. Little brother puts on exact episode of Brooklyn Nine Nine that has that song

I wished that it would never be played anywhere again on planet earth

It’s a Christmas Wish

Get on it.

Maybe by then you’ll have fucking told me who I’m supposed to be calling.