Elucidating Questions

It’s not like he has to or anything

If he actually wanted to see me he could do it

So I know he doesn’t want to

It’s that simple with him

I’ve seen him when he wants something from me

When he doesn’t he is not here

How much time has to pass before

I’m allowed to have more than this?

Watching silently I still felt lost without someone else

One too few

Wouldn’t it be more realistic if conversations changed as people became closer

But maybe not

Maybe if things get better I’ll think I’m better than everyone else and try to make sure no one can ever get as well off as me

Or somehow else I deserve this perpetual lack of social being filled

Pretend I’m a Sim

Oh I used to laugh when they started talking to sad clowns

Pretend I’m a Sim

My energy never goes above 50%

Comfort rarely goes above 40%

Fun sometimes goes up to 25% but then drops. Rarely goes to 100%

Doesn’t stay long

Social

Store interactions +5%

Co-worker interactions +10%

School interactions +20%

That’s in total over an entire day if they are there

Prescribed activities

Texting

Is like writing

Is like reading

I forget

Almost everything I read except for important aspects of the story line

My mind doesn’t know what’s important until it finds why it was

Retrieved from long not short

When do they convert?

I wish to be somewhere less lonely now.

The rain is pouring.

I’m talking to all these sad clowns.