Elucidating Questions

Can I ask you something?

Why is it that

No matter what I do

Nothing happens?

But it happened I saw it

But nothing happens

If I close my eyes it’s like nothing changed at all.

Worth it or not worth it

Nothing changed

It’s like it’s not even like it wasn’t worth it

It’s like

I started at zero

I end at zero.

But Chestnut?

Protector against spiders

Beautiful compassionate man who was a boy who was still a boy

Who I miss,

Nothing is worth it. My little yellow light of kindness and understanding

Nothing has been worth it.

My love,

My beautiful friend,

Sweetheart,

Darling,

Nothing has been worth it in the end.

It doesn’t even matter.

So I don’t care what you have to say.

I’ll do it anyway.