Elucidating Questions

I don’t know why it still calls.

It’s not remembering it’s just familiar

I already did that

Why are you still here?

Struggling forward in this nothingness that just never ends

I believed he could love me

I believed we could be best friends

I believed we were connected somehow and the reason I always felt drawn to him would be gone

Always staring in his direction

From when I was young

If the story continues like this

Eventually I just won’t care anymore.

It will just be words no and I already did

I’m so tired.

None of these questions will ever have answers because the answer to all of them was him until he

Wasn’t

What I wanted, what I thought.

He couldn’t even open up the door.

And I just want to die

Put your arms around me

I wish I could