Elucidating Questions

Just don’t tell them

You don’t have to tell them

Don’t tell them anything

He told me many times to start

But no I wanted to be brave

And ha! how foolish being brave is

And no

Don’t read it wrong

The question is

Am I wrong?

Don’t share it don’t do anything.

Yeah I could have done that but I wanted to

Do something accomplish something make my life worth living

It’s worse now than it was then

If I could take it all back and just

Never have said or felt anything at all and just kept it silent and to myself and

I honestly don’t know

What would have happened

But there’s a chance it would have been better

I look back now at myself in hopes as always that I can say

It gets better

But I can’t.

There is no thing that could happen that would make

My life better this year

My life

I didn’t say

Moment it will fade away soon it was a nice moment but it will be gone soon

If my life was better maybe I’d have a mind strong enough

To remember

The nice moments

Because they’re so few and I wish

Days didn’t go between them.