Elucidating Questions

It is I who is the walking dead not alive this is not alive

Shuffling through life just trying to find a moment that will be remembered

That never comes

Walking silent through the life unwanted

I said completely unwanted

But I just don’t die

And I don’t like what’s happening outside myself

Sucking the world’s body dry

Of life

It feels like someone told me to shut up

I was imagining giving up having to write anymore if only someone came along

I’d give it up

None of it matters anymore

None of it really matters I’m beyond try try again

I’m beyond try try try

I’m beyond

I AM FUCKING TRYING

I’m beyond

Taking another shot

Losing to win another day

Beyond

Beyond ever wanting to trust myself which I’ve broken and destroyed and torn and cut and sewn back together only to cut again

And again

With anyone because I won’t be myself

Ever again

If I have to show them

The state I’m in

Well it’s over and done with anyways

On to the rest of these

Longer than days

So much longer

Than days