Elucidating Questions

“I just love your sunny disposition”

And I love the way you criticise my mood without offering an option to help

Simply I am wrong in my way

I just love how your voice has been added to the whispers in my ears that criticise my every move

Welcome to the face inside

That’s where you live now

As a voice to torment me

A ghost I will carry

“No matter how many nice things you say, you’re always going to have said those terrible things too, so the nice things don’t matter”

The blue and the wolf

Stalk their prey as one

You were never good enough for me

But you’re fat!

I will never have time for you

Your work is worthless and meaningless

You couldn’t even give me what I wanted

Everyone should be allowed to choose their fate

I blink in the sunrise

But I didn’t get to choose.

Everyone else chooses

And I have to live with their choices

Everyone else chooses somebody over nobody

And nobody can’t do a damn thing about it

Lost in a flow

My dreams do a pretty good job of mimicking Nightvale

Cecil said so

And a lot of other things

Of course dreams are memories from a past life

We all are

Don’t lock the door

I noticed

I noticed

But I am not pleased that he’s still blonde in my dreams and that he’s still there

And they are

So I wake up in a moment of dreams where

If it was only if it was just still a dream I could be happy waking

Instead I wake again

Looking and feeling

Feelish

It’s such an ugly word two e’s in a row and it just looks

Dumb.

I wish I could live in a world where those voices who joined the face under my skin would be silent because all the ones who made them would come and erase them

Josh’s is filled with

The worst reactions I can imagine because

If it was a good reaction

He would have been here by now.

Everyone else is just quotes or similar sayings things that cut me that I smiled through

He scares me because he bangs things when he’s angry and doesn’t say a word

Calm face while the energy crackles and burns

And I can’t work

With it I can’t so

I’m running away again.

The only battle I ever picked

Was lost in glorious historically remembered bloody and savage decimating sorrow.

Me, zero.

I’m zero to one.

I’m zero.

I’m nobody.