Elucidating Questions

Illumination

Memories of wandering under lighted trees where couples belong

Memories of December

I wish it wouldn’t be December.

It would be so much better if the next two months just

Didn’t exist

It’s so pretty.

It doesn’t suit reality.

How ugly it is

How awful it is

I don’t want it to be December

I don’t want winter season or festive season or happy people together living happily together

While I watch again from the sidelines

I don’t have any will to be here in this terrible season

I don’t want to watch everyone happy without me

Please don’t make me have to watch all alone again

But I begged not to be alone

And it never worked

Please don’t make me do this again

Please…