Elucidating Questions

I miss you please don’t be gone please don’t go away

I miss you please come back please I…

All I needed was that one night

Please I

Know you’re not coming back and you have no reason to because you decided

Decided I wouldn’t couldn’t do

And no one else wants me so I’m stuck here like this

It’s not good enough it’s like

Ordering a Sundae from Serendipity and getting a cup of almond milk that was left in the sun.

Like well okay it’s something anyway

Never enough

I’m so tired of missing you for feelings reasons and then missing you for feeling reasons and then thinking

I wish I hadn’t ever said anything because if I hadn’t I’d be sitting here crying about being a 27 year old virgin but instead I’m here

Feeling like it’ll never be enough again

And it’ll never be worth it again

And I just wish you’d come back because we could do this at least another month or two before you find a girl you actually want so

Why

But

Into silence and nothing

Because I have no way

And you don’t love me

And I don’t understand how you can’t love people

But I wish I was like you

Because then I wouldn’t hurt like I do

And he’s never coming back

And I’ll take another drink

Where am I supposed to go

From the castle gate locked

And the answer a silently screamed