Elucidating Questions

I’ll tell you something that you’ll never know

I don’t like feeling this way

I wish

I could be alone

Because alone is not alone when your thoughts and all the whispering

The face inside that laughs when I cry

Trying to put it outside made it seem like I was outside

But doesn’t heal the pain

I’m not alone

I’m alone with the voice

Voices

My dad’s voice telling me everyone will get bored of me and leave

My mum’s voice telling me I can’t just invite myself over or into people’s company it’s rude

My sister’s voice telling me I’m a terrible human being

My sister’s voice telling me all the reasons she wants to move away from me

My voices of voices heard before echoed in the cruel darkening whirling mass of water fire shards of glass

I wish I could go somewhere where I don’t have to hear the nothing

I wish I could find somewhere where I didn’t have to hear the nothing

I was so afraid of the nothing and it got me too and I can’t keep going without you

Sebastian

Help me