Elucidating Questions

It feels like waking up every morning out of places where people were and would and did

Into a world where I’m alone

And it hurts

And I just want it to stop

It feels like if I just had someone who understood and could help me

It feels like there’s no one like that

It feels like I’ve been alone for weeks and I can’t find anyone safe

It feels like I may have someone who I could trust later but not now

Just

Can’t do it

I’m so afraid of new people

Everyone left

And every day hurts

And I can’t remember anything but pain

I just wanted this year to be the start of never having to want to die ever again but it wasn’t

And I’m all alone and I just wish

Someone would kill me

Please

Just kill me…

Please I don’t want to fight anymore

I want to die