Elucidating Questions

It started when I got back from Japan

2015 not 17

Think back in a different way

I feel like I came back and everyone was so distant and I couldn’t bring them back

The sound of your voice

Chester

I don’t even have a song playing I just know your voice in my head

I link back because you were right when he said it

But when I was in Japan I’d found my three

Always always three

I just happens to me

Black purple red

Rocks Holes and a Head

If the fates had some empathy.

Like the gods did too

Maybe they’d be nicer to you.

But when I came back everyone seemed so different to me

And I did make friends I didn’t have before but I think I was so shocked down to my core

Reeling from losing my last grandparents

Two while I was gone

And the home I returned to not for too long

Felt broken

And sad

And no matter how hard I tried

Everyone seemed so far away

But maybe it was just my eyes

I never knew much didn’t know anything at all

But I felt so much more connected to other people there even when trying not to fall

Here it’s like free falling

There it’s like

Hey,

Do you want to go do something?

And when they can’t, even when they can’t, they come up with another time

And I felt loved and wanted

Because it felt like they wanted me even if they were lying.

Here it’s like

Can we do something?

…

Either silence or a plain no

Not how about next week? Or I’m busy but I love you though!

時間がなくっても時間を作る、今週はだめでも来週が来る。

文化の問題とか,ただの間違え

I don’t know

But here’s what it’s like when no one tries to keep you

No one tries to reschedule no one tries to support

No one tries to help no one tries to even purport

That they want me when I need them

Or like they need me too

I just needed a hug

And someone to say me too.