Elucidating Questions

Happy couples making out at the bus stop

Music about how there’s someone somewhere out there

About giving hearts and undying love

And none of it was ever for me because I’m going to be thirty and have never been in a relationship with someone I love that’s not completely fucked up because I’m a fuck up

Or online

Happy couples who get to go home

Everyone else is so happy and I want to walk into traffic but you can’t guarantee you’ll die because if the car isn’t going fast enough or you don’t get hit right you’ll live and it’ll be a waste of everyone’s fucking time like I’m a waste of time now

If I had a car I would drive it off a cliff

I wish I had a gun

Happy couples

I want to die.

I don’t want to do this fucking season. All alone again

You did this to yourself they say

I just wanted it to end.