Elucidating Questions

I want to die but I’m still here

I’m useless

Unwanted

I want to stop and yet here is more bullshit

Who knows what number it is

He doesn’t care or read it

It’s all meaningless it was all meaningless I poured out my heart and told him things I’d never had enough courage to tell and I posted it public because I just wanted him to see it

But it wasn’t good enough and no matter how hard I try I’ll never want anything I write to do well because the only person that mattered

He hates it he hated it he won’t say a word about it

It hurts

I’m hurting please just make it better

It doesn’t get better and I’m not worth it

I wish I was dead

But I’m not yet

And I wish I had died months ago

And I haven’t yet

I wish I was dead

I don’t care what happens next