Elucidating Questions

Well that was obvious

Guardian silent but deadly they started too early and he ran in and yelled

Off they went

My dreams never have an ending and I always wake with this wish I could go back simply because it’s incomplete

But so am I so what’s the surprise?

My hands hurt

My fingers hurt and writing is painful

Waking up is painful

Being awake is painful

If only I could be sedated for the rest of my life

Live in dreams

Never wake up and just waste away to nothing fast asleep

I’d be happy then

That’s all I want

To be left alone to sleep forever then die

I don’t want to wake up anymore

That’s not something that goes away

I dare every car to hit me

Every person to snap

I do it every day

Silently wishing something will kill me so I don’t have to

But I’m always safe

Isn’t it pointless though?

Everything

I don’t want to be punished for doing the one thing I want to do

So I don’t

There’s a feeling I don’t like

Imagining him living out his day

It feels angry and hot

Sad and thick with pain

I want to make it go away

Because he doesn’t deserve it

But he left me here

I can forgive a murderer but not a

What exactly anyways

Why am I stuck to him?

Fuck off and leave both of us alone why don’t you

Stop bringing him into our lives and reminding us he’s here

We know

I know

Whispering his name

Or there it is

Or that person had his eyes

Or oh there’s that again

It doesn’t matter does it?

Throwing him into our dreams

Or he just so fucking happened to have a picture

Of where

Call me maybe

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

Was mixed