Elucidating Questions

Substances competing

I feel my heartbeat slowing down I know it will speed up

Depressants depressants anti depressants

If I drink the anti with the depressant will the depressant become anti will the anti become depressant

Or will they become nothing

Oh imagine nothing

Imagine floating in a nowhere nothing

Where I could sleep forever

Nothing to wake me from my dreams

Nothing to take me from the people that care about me

The nonsensicality of my own brain

But they say it disconnects

But I often call myself out

Stop being ridiculous this may be a dream but stop it

The only place I’m actually in control of my brain

Even when I’m fighting against it

We both have to be near death to get my win in

But it wins eventually

When it gangs up with time

And the alarm is ringing

And I’m crying