Elucidating Questions

The crows called you like they call me

When the light of your world went out and you couldn’t see

I have no pebble of time to misguidedly guide me

No quiet kind shining one

No river

No sloth

She’s often a mother it’s a wonder

In my dream when you fall to me I call to you

But I’m not falling I’m flying

The wings have always been a part of me

I still don’t remember how this one came to me

It’s always meant so much

She’s been led to a well by the crows

She wishes she could go where no one knows

The pain in her heart and the way her mind flies away

Fallen down the hole and in the hole to stay

In the dark because she jumped to catch the wish she had dropped

The water flows louder

Any morning without me

Would be a morning better for it

My existence should be erased

いなくなった方が良い。

Falling freely through the skies as the strange dream plays before your eyes

Yes

She was always me

I always felt it

But now she’s at the bottom and he melted

Can’t get out can’t get out lost trapped can’t escape

At the bottom with the bones

Of a dear friend

懐かしいなー

So numb and lost

But in my world it breaks here

No one is looking for me at the bottom

No one is rushing to find me

No one is worried for my safety enough to be with me or want to be with me or miss me soon enough to realise I’m gone

Building a grave for my dear friend lost at the bottom

I couldn’t even remember who I was but I knew he was important

Precious

And lost

The first snow

The last snow

The cold was so welcome and so weird but

Why do I want to forget?

It was warm and felt right but it was so painful and I wanted it to end

And now even though I don’t want to be I still find myself drifting to the thought of him because I love him

And I miss him and I don’t know why

This person who I’ve never met

I still feel drawn to him

Like a moth to a flame

Like an angel to the skies