Elucidating Questions

He doesn’t care about me

Not one bit

It’s something I wanted to change

But not something I have the power to change

I have only noticed it

Now when it’s too late

I wish I could make someone care about me the way I care about others

But that’s not something I can choose or force or create

After all it takes two

Doesn’t it?

And no matter what I do I can’t love him if he doesn’t love me back

Dialing it back wouldn’t work because I’m in too deep

Something awful just happened

I’ll be hearing sirens in a second

Or maybe I dreamt it and everything is fine

I’d rather everything be fine

I can’t make him love me

Love can’t be earned

Love can’t be made

Love can’t be

Because I’m not loveable.

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In the way I want to be

I wish I knew how

Like how I could be better so everyone would love me

I just want to be loved

But there was a really big spider

And he’s not coming

And it’s entirely my fault