Elucidating Questions

Every day I hope it is the end

Just the end

The end

Every day nothing happens

And it’s unfortunate

So unfortunate

That every day the hope is burnt alive

And that the hope to live died long ago with the hope to love

They’re the same word, it just became a circle on the gravity of you

Like a whirlpool

I can’t get out of

Trapped in the spinning whirling waters

There’s a wish that never disappears

But at least I know where you are and that you’re looking at the same sky

That your smile exists somewhere even if it’s not for me

See I love you and want you to be happy

It’s me who needs to leave this place

You match it

You’re beautiful here and you fit

Just like all the misfits

They actually fit

Just not me

I’ll never see it in myself

And I can’t ask anyone else to

So it doesn’t exist

And I’m still nothing

Just in a different place

Do you want nothing yet?

I can promise you nothing

I can promise you all the nothing you could possibly want I could be

Your absolutely nothing

Instead of being your everything

I want you

But that’s just what makes me unwantable.