Elucidating Questions

Back from once

Lost to thought

Ready I’m not

I’m so dumb

I want no me

But that was easier said than done

Night is day

Things can go from slim to none

But I am done

And I just want a loaded gun.

I don’t want to be

Nobody needs to see this

I tried to resist

But it’s dark and I have nothing here that fits

I want to go, but I failed it

I don’t want to stay and I shouldn’t

Want to say no, but I couldn’t.

So shoot me in the face.

Caught inside the chill of your cold embrace.

I want to kill my heart.

Cause baby, I just can’t listen

I can’t listen to the start.

Meant to be?

It’s all been just foolish childish fantasy.

Because now it’s fall and I’m invisible as I’ll ever be

And after me just comes to them so easily

Fucking easy

And loving them means nothing.

But I can’t leave you so.