Elucidating Questions

I don’t know where I’m going

I just know the bed is empty

And my lips are stuck together with the tears I cried into them

I wish I could lock myself in here forever and never get out of bed again

I want to lie here and waste away and never get up again and just wait here for the end

Sleeping and lying and never leaving the bed so it will never be empty but I will always be alone in it

I’m not heading towards a bed with you in it and you’re the only one I ever wanted in it

Crying for the better part of the night

Don’t get me started it hasn’t ended it’s just been going and going and it never fucking ends

I wish I could just decide to stop breathing

Or to just decide to stop living so I could just be done with

I don’t want to get up again

Home is so far away

Every moment is temporary until the end

I wish it was