Elucidating Questions

I wish pain was just a place then I could leave it

But pain just leads to more pain and that pain leads further to more pain.

If I leave this place I’ll never have to see anyone’s vehicles

Wouldn’t that be nice

If I could leave this place.

I’d rather erase the past and never live there but where do I go when I want to be anywhere but here

Anywhere but here.

If nothing changes where am I supposed to get a start from when there’s no one and no where.

If I could tell him I did it.

Stopped dead in my tracks and tore apart the past so there’s no future for me either.

And now I have nothing.

Worse than numb.

Stupid and dumb.

If I take responsibility for it

I don’t deserve to live

Get to it.