Elucidating Questions

They say you made these choices to decide the life you’re living

This solitary sadness

This love that never matters

So turn over a new leaf

Grow an entirely fucking new new leaf just do it

Suddenly I’m on the moon that waited from bed until now so I could land somewhere familiar

Family

The stone family who is always by my side and can’t ever leave because the sun keeps them here for me

Gravity

And push and pull.

No it’s bigger than you made it now it’s a song about the Styx

And the times I’ve been through it.

It’s autumn fall September ends October

Please could anyone just come over

It’s too late to grow any new leaves don’t you see them falling off the trees it’s too late to start a new life and lead it in the direction I want

Rooted to the ground as they fall all around all the changes I tried that just made me cry and wish I never had to do any of it again

This plan where we all march to oblivion in our own sadness that we all take to the graves like fireflies that shine during the day

Invisible and unimportant in the blinding light never telling anyone never making it right

Never trying to make it better or say anything that could hint that I made any progress I don’t see any of it

I want to go back to the moment I saw the moon and the blue almost hid it but it broke through and I was on the curved white surface

Tilting towards the neverending circle of life that doesn’t make any fucking sense

He couldn’t even afford me an apology

Is that really just how awful I am?