Elucidating Questions

You don’t feel it like I do

Like the moment I realised you were just going to leave me here in this blinding place

Like you aren’t going to someday permit me the mercy I have begged you for

Safer lost in the thoughts of a man who would have

Really though to leave me here to burn and hurt all alone when I know I know

It’s not your issue

I put myself here and I can’t hold it against you

I usually don’t

It would be so nice to blame someone other than myself but I did this to myself

And a complete stranger

Well he is or isn’t aware so what’s the reason for it

Why can’t I stop?

I should apologise for involving them.

I should not speak to them.

And who among them would even care

For the apologies of a crazy lonely stranger.