Elucidating Questions

Force him to eat

Force feed him

Enjoy the fucking mooncake under the sun.

It’s his light anyways that shows her face for what it is,

Marked and destroyed with the remains of skeletons of thousands of rocks.

Millions?

No I’m not worrying about it yes I’m worrying about it leave me to worry in silence I will always worry about him

Don’t force me to eat I have no drive to do it.

How many yous do I have to say goodbye to before you say hello to me?

How many times do I sort through the wreckage of this place and come immediately back to you before you see me seeing you seeing me

I may be made of paper and glass but I flew here for a reason and it keeps being you.

It keeps being you so shut up and sit down for a moment while I have no idea who or what

No

You

Stop.

I’m just an unfortunate meeting of cells that decided to explode

I came for you

From somewhere so far away I’ll never find home

But you’re not here

If you were you wouldn’t be here because you’re a stubborn fuck who doesn’t ever listen to me

If you’re not being a coward you’re blowing shit up for stupid reasons

If you’re not stuck in your own mind maze of indecision and shame and guilt you’re pretending none of it exists so you don’t have to think about it and try to drink it away

You’re fucking stubborn and you should be here for me to yell at because you can’t hear a fucking word I’m telling you and you still don’t care do you?

Because caring is just so hard for you.

Because you’re afraid everyone will hurt you because they have hurt you and not one of them offered you an apology you deserved

My eyes are burning with flames so bright the sun can’t burn into my retinas but

You’re not here.

You or your fucking cat.

You’re not who I thought you were.

I’m getting tired of hide and seek.

Nevermind.