Elucidating Questions

Watching with sick interest

As I go through moments when I thought something good would finally happen

All the times it didn’t.

Why are you bothering you’re just going to let him erase it

Why are you bothering you’re just going to fail.

I wonder if I’m too hard on myself

But then I see the aftermath

I’m not nearly hard enough on myself

You fail

You fucking fail

Keep that in mind while you run blindly into nowhere and let everything tear you apart

Keep that in mind when you tell him you love him

Keep it in fucking mind.

I know you didn’t listen.